I grew up with 3 older brothers.
I started gaining weight after I married my now ex-husband.
My highest weight was 293.5 lbs…..and that was back in 1999 or so.
By 2001 I had gotten down to 265 lbs. or so just by cutting some things out….no exercise.
In 2002 I started walking and got down to around 230 lbs. and I started dating again…….I felt better about myself.
I got a Bf and started gaining weight back.
We broke up……..I was about 250 lbs.
2008 or 9, I went to the Dr. and he gave me an Rx for Aderal. I got down to 192 lbs. but I was on it for way too long. I started dating again and stopped taking Aderal because I found out that you aren’t suppose to take it for very long and I was taking it for way too long. I got a bf. I started gaining weight back again.
I finally figured out that I was scared of being in a relationship again because of what I went through with my ex-husband.
The relationship I have with my current bf is awesome. I TOTALLY adore that man.
I am currently not taking any diet drugs……I am following a sensible diet and I am exercising. I log my food and exercise on sparkpeople.com (it is a free site! Check it out!).
So far I have lost 13 lbs.
So, back to the title of this entry. Deep down inside…..I have always wanted to be a ‘girly girl’….but I grew up a tom boy and by the time I was around the age I could let it shine, I met my now ex-husband and started againing weight and I was then too embarassed to dress like …….what I refer to as a ‘girly girl’
So…………I am thinking that I might be able to actually do this soon. I can’t even remember when clothes actually looked good on me. It was over 20 years ago! I am so excited at the thought that I might look good in clothes again!